Outside Reading #2

The more I read the more I pick out things about Craig that are so different from other people, and that confuse me. His personality is so different and he knows exactly what he wants and what he wants to do all the time. Craig has friends and he does these experiments to see if he's getting better or worse in the means of depression. One week he'll smoke a ton of pot, one week he won't. And the effect is the same, he's still as depressed as before. There's something he calls, "The Shift" throughout the book and to him it means his brain is being able to slide into the spot it's supposed to be in. To me it means for him to be completely okay and normal.At times I feel like Craig is choosing not to get better, he won't, but sometimes I feel like he can't. Like there is a chemical imbalance in his brain that is keeping him from acting the way he is supposed to act. That's hard to believe though because of all the opportunities he's been throwing away. Another term he uses are Tentacles-evil invasions that invade his life. Then Anchors-things that occupy his mind and make him feel good temporarily. I think the auther capitalizes these words in the book because they want the reader to see how Craig's thinking, categories for regular, everyday things. He also always wastes a ton of time each day being unproductive and doing things that don't do any good. For example, lying in his bed for hours on end instead of doing his homework (which he doesn't do by the way) It may sound like he's just being lazy, but it may be something deeper than that.